I tend to think that I deserve good things in my life. I mean, I work really hard, I serve others, I treat people well, and I try and do the right things. I consider myself pretty honest, selfless and giving. Oh, and I love the Lord.
I don’t steal, I don’t cheat, I don’t do drugs, and I don’t lie much. I am nicer than the people I work with, I don’t curse as much as my teammates, and I am a virgin unlike most of my friends. I mean, I am a “good” person compared to the people I know.
Okay, let’s PAUSE for a second, and be honest with ourselves. Is this how Christ looked at us when He hung on the cross brutally beaten and wrongfully accused? Did He hang there and say, “Well, because you were ‘good’ I guess I will give my life so you can have yours.” NO! He thought of us and said, “Go and live your life, here is mine! Not because of what you have done, but because of what I have done.”
As I sit here open and honest with you all, I recognize that I live my life feeling as though I deserve what God has given me. I feel as though because I am “good” enough, that God will bless my life. In reality, what I do deserve is death, rejection, and condemnation, but God gives me life, mercy and acceptance.
Now, I am not here to tell you that you deserve nothing but bad things. I am here to share with you the unwavering LOVE that God has shown us. [Tweet “GOD has given us so much more than any of us could ever deserve.”]
This is a big thing in my life I struggle to admit. If there is something that my heart truly desires, I think of all the reasons I deserve to have it. A couple weeks ago, I was preparing for my nursing boards, and the day I took them, I prayed. I prayed that I would pass, and I told God that I have worked so long, and so hard for this, and that I deserve to pass. As embarrassing as that is, it is true. I felt that because of who I am, and because of what I have done, I deserve to be rewarded.
These past couple of weeks, God has really called me out on this. God doesn’t look at me for the things I do or don’t do. He looks at me with steadfast love. A love so strong that He sent his ONLY Son to die for me so that I, an imperfect and undeserving person, can have life and have it to the fullest.
As I sit here and try to trick myself into thinking how “good” of a person I am, I am reminded of the amazing sacrifice God made for me. I remember listening to a sermon my pastor, Craig Groeshel gave and he said:
“Jesus gave up what He deserved to give us what we don’t deserve.”
That couldn’t be said more perfectly. We don’t deserve what God has given us, in fact we deserve much worse. God loves you so much, and He loves me the same, and because of this our chains are broken and we are set free! I pray that like me, this will give you a reason to thank the Lord for His sacrifice and His obsessive love, because we don’t deserve it.
This week I pray that we would be reminded of the true sacrifice God has given us because of the crazy love that He has for us. I pray we would realize the grace we have received even when we are undeserving. I pray that the Lord would soften our hearts to the fact that there is nothing that we can do to make Him love us any more or any less. Let us look less at what we have done, and look more at what Christ has done. He deserves it.