I've noticed lately that each time I get on one of my many social media accounts, I struggle with something.
Take Instagram for example.
I'm scrolling through and I stop on a picture of a girl who I went to high school with. She's standing on a boat with four other girls and they're all in bikinis.
My first thoughts are: "I do not look like that in a bathing suit. I'm too fat. I would need make up to take a picture like that. They're tan, skinny and gorgeous. I can't wear stuff like that, it never looks right."
And then I go back to scrolling again. Keep scrolling, scrolling, stop.
One of my best friends is holding a sparkler while on the back of her long-time boyfriend on the Fourth of July.
My first thoughts: "They're so cute together. I'm lonely. I want a guy like that. She has him because she's beautiful. I would need to lose a couple pounds before I find a guy like that. Ugh that's a really cute picture. I want a picture like that and I bet her Fourth of July was way better than mine".
Back to scrolling. Pictures of babies, outfit pics, celebrity man crushes and stop on some girl (whom I don't even know) who is posted as someone's woman crush. It's a selfie, and my first thought: "Oh my gosh they got 235 likes on that picture, I get like 22, and that's on a good day. Oh she's in a sorority, that's why. The guy that posted that is so cute, I haven't been someone's woman crush in a really long time. I'm jealous. I need to get out more. I'm too introverted. I'm too insecure to meet new people."
Jealousy. Comparison. Desire. Competition.
Why do we as women and girls struggle with this so much? And it isn't just Social Media that makes me feel this way, it's at church, school, amongst friends, in a drive-thru, etc.
This is my number one problem right now. 87% of my time is spent on wishing I were different, wishing I was someone else completely or thinking of another way I can fix things about myself.
Why?! Why do we do this? Why do I do it? It's affecting the way I see my friends, the way I see boys and most importantly the way I see myself.
This is my "why" question for the week. Why do I think like this, and compare myself to others? Why do I not believe all the wonderful things that Jesus says I am?
I really feel in my heart that I need to end this with saying more than a few truths that God has said about me, and continue to speak them over myself until I believe them.
- I am precious (Isaiah 43:4).
- I am loved (Isaiah 43:4).
- I am a daughter to the King of Kings (2 Corinthians 6:18) .
- I am anointed (1 John 2:20).
- I am beautiful (Proverbs 3:15).
- There is no one on this planet that is just like me (Isaiah 64:8).
- I am wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14).
- I am a jewel (Zechariah 9:16).
- I am a disciple (John 13:35).
- I am trustworthy (John 17:17).
- I am not alone (Psalm 34:18).
- I have purpose (Psalm 138:8).
- I am a princess (Psalm 45:13).
- I will be given a husband to love (Isaiah 34:16).
- I am not too young (Timothy 4:12).
- I am not fat, nor ugly, on the inside or out (Proverbs 3:15).
- I am forgiven (Matthew 18:22).
Jesus thinks the world of me. He doesn't want me or you to think like this, compare or compete. He believes all these wonderful things about me and he believes them about you too.
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Kerrigan is an eighteen year old who is about to begin her sophomore year at the University of Central Oklahoma. She enjoys writing, playing soccer and watching movies. Kerrigan is involved in college ministry and is passionate about God.